Ash, Louise Wallace, Te Herenga Waka University Press, 2024
I have to learn
to live there.
But first I must dig
myself out.
Louise Wallace, Ash
How to begin? How to share thoughts on Louise Wallace’s extraordinary novel without diluting the reading experience for you, without smashing the slowly accruing mood, the enigmatic mountain, and the maternal throb.
A woman lives in the shadow of a rural mountain, with her husband and two children. Mother wife vet woman body. Body belonging to child and child and husband, and even the stranger seated next to her in the dental surgery. I am reading this heartblasting evocation of woman on the coat tails of reading Lee Murray’s poetry-prose collection, Fox Spirit on a Distant Cloud. With the help of a nine-tailed fox spirit, Lee depicts nine Chinese women in the land of cloud. Upended, anchorless, despairing. A book that also moved me to the hilt.
How to be mother wife woman, working woman, dreamer, dreamcatcher, survivor – against and within a spectrum of visible and invisible degrees of subjugation? How to write a story driven by these vital questions? Begin with voice. Begin with a voice so real you are walking up the gravel hill alongside the woman as she heaves and grunts and pushes the pram. You are awake in the night with her as she searches for answers to her personal universe of questions.
Build a narrative and make it real familiar everyday, and then insert pieces that both enhance and disrupt the steady flow of the quotidian. Reclaim the art of storytelling, the practice of living, and make them your own. For example, Louise includes a sequence of ‘figures’ throughout the novel, as though we are holding a scientific treatise, but the word ‘figure’ rebounds as it signals body, proportions, considerations, adjuncts. For example, ‘Figure1. (The Figure)’ jam-repeats the phrase, ‘nothingissacrednothingissacred’ to form a hemmed-in box of text. Later ‘Figure 15 (The Figure)’ jams the phase ‘iamshellturningintoashelliamshellturningintoashell’ into a block text within the frame.
Keep the story moving moving and repeating. Now the woman is screaming at Nick and feeding the children and struggling to heal the limping bull. And it is real, devastatingly real, and it is splintering the mountain, and the story becomes myth and metaphor and fable. And it makes me ache and think hard. And it never stops being body-stomping real.
Along the bottom of the page we can follow a footnote thread of sentences, a footer fable, an underlay carpet that augments and stretches and weeps, as it traces other women wives mothers repetitions: ‘The wife had spilled the soup in bringing it to the table. Or had not put the butter out beside the bread.’
And I am sitting on the edge of the bed saying YES YES YES! We are following in the wordprints of all the writers who preceded us, all the mothers and sisters who wrote and lived, found voice, fierce or soft, groundbreaking or seed planting. Pioneers and Goddesses. In her ‘Acknowledgements’, Louise lists some of her sources of inspiration: Jenny Bornholdt’s The Rocky Shore, Zarah Butcher-McGunnigle’s Autobiography of a Marguerite, Arthur W. Frank’s The Wounded Storyteller: Body, Illness and Ethics, the ‘fables’ section of The Pedestrians by Rachel Zucker, Sara McIntyre’s Observations of a Rural Nurse, Danielle Hawkins’ Two Shakes of a Lamb’s Tail: The Diary of a Country Vet, and Anna Perry’s art.
Louise wrote and researched the book within the PhD programme at Ōtakou Whakaihu Waka University of Otago, with the support of numerous writing friends. I can hold this novel out to you like a prism and it will keep shifting in effect. In one light, the catastrophic ash, like Covid, is contaminating lives and places, rations are stockpiled, wellbeing is under threat. In another light, catastrophe becomes rage and is the unbearable weight of helpless and expectation, of the unsaid but the insistently thought. Hold the novel closer and you will spot the tipping point, the edge of eruption.
This is a novel to feel as much as it is a novel to think. It is a seething simmering boiling novel, every word pitch perfect, and I am holding it close because, yes, we need to keep writing from under and over and for the mountain, to step out of helplessness and expectation, role models and body paradigms, writing templates and restrictive definitions and hierarchical canons. Extraordinary.
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Louise Wallace is the author of four collections of poems, the latest of which is This Is a Story About Your Mother (2023). She is the founder and editor of Starling, an online journal publishing the work of young writers from Aotearoa, and the editor of Ōrongohau | Best New Zealand Poems 2022. She is a recipient of the Biggs Prize for Poetry and a Robert Burns fellow. She grew up in Gisborne and lives in Ōtepoti Dunedin. Ash is her first novel.
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