Shine, there’s shine and starlings
and I’m starting to wake up
to a series of occasional
poems, so far a series
of one, the first in a procession
I look forward to as the starlings,
nesting as usual in the wall
behind the fridge, start again with
a new season of fledging
and flights. Yesterday
Susan came over
from next door with pastry
that needed baking in our oven
because hers has broken down and
Lucinda was soon summoned to check
on the state of the pastry while
Robert was left on speaker-phone
stoking his fire. He had been
out gathering clay – but was it clay
or had he been gathering mud, he
wondered – to make a koauau
to improve his poetry readings by
layering in taonga pūoro. I like
his poetry readings because
of the way they sound just like
him talking and how
talking to him on the phone is
like a poetry reading I am invited
to interrupt when occasionally
I have something to add, a sudden
flight, but poetry readings
have taken on more and more shine
and dimension these days with
music and dancing, even in
my dreams. Last night, I dreamed
of Robert’s koauau before waking
to find a new series of occasional poetry
launching on Poetry Shelf
with Robert’s poem
about gathering clay – but
was it clay or was it mud, he
wonders in the poem
as he wondered on the phone, when
he must have already been echoing
the poem I read as an echo of the call,
the poem he must have written
before he talked to me about
the mud, no the clay, and the koauau
which is not yet made but one
day will sound its sound
into the air. I feel it echo in me
before its first sounding and
I want to mark the occasion of the
dream-sounding of the koauau and to mark
the occasion too of the occasional
poetry series launch, and the occasion of
the clay-gathering and the pastry
baking and the phone call
and the reading of Robert’s poem,
so I am writing an occasional
poem of my own, this poem, if
it is a poem, not just a muddy
stream of words, probably needing
music backing it, or back-up dancers
feathered and shining, sounding
a sound beyond the words, beyond
the work, beyond the occasion,
beyond the writing first thing
in the morning, the new moon
(Tirea now, we have passed Mutuwhenua)
still quietly auspicious
though invisible now as the sun
rises, rises and turns, has been rising
for a while now, rising as I write, the birds
quietening and my shoulders
stiffening, and I still
in my pyjamas – I don’t
even know the time.
Anna Jackson
Anna Jackson’s latest collection of poetry is Pasture and Flock: New and Selected Poems (Auckland University Press, 2018). She also recently released Actions and Travels, a book on poetry (Auckland University Press, 2022). She is based in Wellington.
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