Poetry Shelf review: Eileen Merriman’s Catch a Falling Star

Catch a Falling Star, Eileen Merriman, Penguin, 2023

There is something immensely satisfying when you pick the perfect book from your pile to match your mood and reading needs. I am a big fan of Eileen Merriman’s ability to craft stories and characters, whether medical or dystopian, that carry you out of your everyday rhythms with heart and flair. After a week or so of excessive sleep deprivation, it felt slightly ironic to settle in with a character who is also sleep deprived (way worse than me!). But this stellar YA novel kept me hooked until the final page.

Catch a Falling Star is Eileen’s prequel to the heart-wrenching, award-winning Catch Me When You Fall (2018). In the latter, Alexandria Byrd is a leukemia patient who meets and falls for Jamie Orange, as he does for her. In the prequel, we shift to the voice of Jamie, and trace his bumpy pathway to the clinic where he eventually meets Alex. Much water under the bridge before that point. And that turbulent water is Jamie’s story.

Jamie adores musicals. He is a big reader. His parents are separated. He loathes Maths. He gets the part of the donkey in Shrek. He fancies Frankie who is playing Princess Fiona but she is going out with his good friend. Jamie’s world is crumbling and his head is skew whiff. He is in the thick of teenage messiness where every path exposes tough choices, fractures wellbeing, compromises relationships, dissolves responsibility. The warning signs pierce as you read: the suicidal thoughts, the self doubt, the diminished motivation, severe sleep deprivation.

Why did this novel hit the nail for me so beautifully? It is character rich, the voice of Jamie so gripping, the dialogue on point, the pace of the narrative sweetly judged. On the one hand, you are caught up in heart-in-the-mouth vulnerability and decision making; it makes you care and it gives the narrative depth and complexity of heart. But it is also complex because it is rich in reference. George Orwell’s 1984 is present along with Haruki Murikami’s 1Q84. Jamie attempts to write a novel that mashes 1984 and zombies (he would much rather be novel writing than figuring maths problems). His English teacher draws on a wider scope of educational aims than national standards and offers inspiration. Musicals are listed and quoted from. Phantom of the Opera playing on the headphones offers vital relief. Such complexity anchors the narrative, along with the stretched and essential relationships, in a complex world, a world that draws upon both light and dark. The concern and support of those close to Jamie is another significant comfort-anchor as you read.

At the back of the book is a welcome list of places to seek help: telephone numbers, helplines, key organisations. It is a reminder that mental health issues and suicidal thoughts, mania or depression, affect an individual but they also have a ripple effect upon friends and family. There is also a list of famous and not so famous people who have suffered from manic depression (bipolar affective disorder). The presence of both lists, along with the cradle of relationships in the book, underlines the significance of not being alone, of not feeling bereft of support and lifeboats. I know this as a cancer patient.

Ah. Triple ah. Quadruple ah. Catch a Falling Star is a sad, contemporary, thought-provoking, must-read story that revives you no matter how little sleep you have had! The word I take with me is hope, the image I hold is two teenagers bonding over books and coffee. Utterly riveting! Utterly humane.

Eileen Merriman’s first young adult novel, Pieces of You, was published in 2017, and was a finalist in the NZ Book Awards for Children and Young Adults and a Storylines Notable Book. Since then, a stream of novels for adults and young adults have followed. In addition to being a regular finalist in the NZ Book Awards for Children and Young Adults, Merriman was a finalist in the 2021 Ngaio Marsh Award for Best Crime Novel and Moonlight Sonata was longlisted for the Jann Medlicott Acorn Prize for Fiction 2020. Editions of some of her young adult novels have been released in Germany, Turkey and the UK and three have been optioned for film or TV, including the Black Spiral Trilogy. She works as a consultant haematologist at North Shore Hospital.

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Poetry Shelf news: Cud-Chewing Country: NZ Composers and Poets in Concert – A Pre-Review by Pippi Jean

OK, so, to set the scene, it’s early afternoon on a random Friday. End of exam period, and I’m so tired, and my flatmate is working on her final essay. Like a tired hamster in a public enclosure, I curl up in a ball in my chair beside her and squint around the library suspiciously. That’s when my phone dings. Cadence Chung’s invited me to a rehearsal with soprano Sarah Mileham and pianist Ameli Lin. (!!!)


So I toodle down the stairs to the NZSM and sit in the corner of a practice room while they rehearse. Cadence has set five of my poems to a song cycle for soprano, mezzo-soprano and piano. Like, with musical transitions and everything. Motifs that carry through? I don’t know, I’m not a musician, but it sounded so considered and comprehensive that I nearly bawled my eyes out.

Most of the poems Cadence used had only been published in one place – like ‘My City’ and ‘What We Owe To Each Other’ on NZ Poetry Shelf – and from a couple of years ago. I still have no idea the time and effort they put into finding these poems and turning them into compositions. It is freakin’ amazeballs!


I sort of can’t describe the feeling of your own poems being performed to you? It’s like a big cloud floating into the room and zapping you in the head with lightning bolts made of your own thoughts. I hadn’t read most of the poems since I’d written them, which was in high school. So it felt like my sixteen-year-old self had broken into the rehearsal to give me a big hug. Yeah, I got teary! It was a gift.


Along with instrumentation based off Rebecca Hawkes’ Poem About (??), Cadence, Amelia and Sarah are rehearsing to perform six original songs. ‘Cud-Chewing Country’ is a concert of original compositions set to contemporary New Zealand poetry. The aim of the concert is to create a collaboration of multi-disciplinary art, or, a conversation between composers and poets. Along with Cadence, composers Kassandra Wang, Mallory Elmo and Wynton Newman are performing their works. Poets whose work is included are Janet Newman, Kate Camp, Loretta Riach, Max and Olive,
and Brent Kininmont.


To hint more of the programme, instrumentation includes Kassandra Wang’s unaccompanied SAT vocal quartet, Wynton Newman’s jazz quartet, and Mallory Elmo’s various combinations of mezzo- soprano, piano, violin, electric guitar, and a solo vocalizing cello. Pretty freakin’ rad??!?!?


The concert will take place at St Peter’s on Willis on the 8th of July, 2023. Wellington City Council Creative Communities is the sponsor. SOUNZ Centre for New Zealand Music will be recording the concert. I totally recommend going if you’re based in Te-Whanganui-A-Tara.

Pippi Jean

Poetry Shelf Favourite Poems: Stacey Teague’s ‘Love language’

Love language

“Language does not pour out of me,
but is something I’ve entered” – Jack Underwood

I’m at home in the big air.
Under the surest sky I’ve seen
I am touching your poem.
The one where you stood in the afternoon.
Stopped at a pedestrian crossing.
In movie magic lighting.
Moving towards me! Imagine!
And I do want a little forehead kiss.
In line at a medium tier rural café.
I will eat a huge slice of lolly cake.
You will drink a huge chocolate milkshake.
Everything will be just huge.
The feeling also enters the room.
And the river is there bending around us.
And we see ourselves reflected on the surface.
And I can hold my stomach to keep the pain inside.
And you will hold it from the outside.
Sometimes, by the river, I see my life as big as a movie screen.
Other times it is a loose stone to kick down the path.
On a loose-stone night I kiss the big air.
When I’m taking the bins out.
I touch the poem in a romance way.
When taking out the glass recycling.
Before walking over to your house.
In a romance way.
The clouds touching as the credits roll.

Stacey Teague

I wrote this poem on a weekend away with the poets. I was sitting outside on the front deck of our Airbnb in Raumati, trying to get some sunshine and this poem came quite quickly. I was thinking about a recent trip I had taken to Whanganui with my partner. I was thinking about the Whanganui river, wide and deep and moving. About how lives feel big and small. About being lost in thought on bin night. I was thinking about how it feels to let somebody hold the things that are hard to carry by ourselves. I was also thinking about how good lolly cake is.

‘Love language’ was originally posted at The SpinOff, March 2023

Stacey Teague (Ngāti Maniapoto/Ngāpuhi) is a writer and teacher living in Te Whanganui-a-Tara. She is a publisher and editor at Tender Press.

Poetry Shelf audio: Stephanie de Montalk reads from As the Trees Have Grown

Photo credit: Ebony Lamb

Stephanie de Montalk reads from As the Trees Have Grown
Te Herenga Waka University Press, 2023

‘Heartfelt’

‘At Waitangi’

Papaver somniferum

‘Park life’

‘The far north’

Stephanie de Montalk is a poet, novelist, memoirist, and biographer. She has also worked as a nurse and documentary film maker. For her first poetry collection, Animals Indoors, she received the NZSA Jessie Mackay Best First Book of Poetry award at the 2001 Montana New Zealand Book Awards. In 2015 she received a Nigel Cox Award at the Auckland Writers’ Festival, for her widely acclaimed memoir How Does It Hurt?

Te Herenga Waka University Press page

Poetry Shelf Monday Poem: Serie Barford’s ‘Dressed for theatre’

Dressed for theatre

Child-me bought paper doll dress-up books with coins garnered
from selling eggs. Pressed out cardboard figurines. Snipped
garments onto varnished floors.

Handcrafted sumptuous frocks with pastels, glitter and luncheon
paper. Decorated bodices with petals dipped in flour ‘n’ water
glue seasoned with salt to prevent mould. Embroidered hemlines
with sticky grass seeds resembling tiny beads.

Gently folded paper tabs around shoulders, waists, hips. Created
narratives for red carpet events. Shawls for warmth and glamour.

Arranged dolls under coloured spotlights – beams from handheld
torches filtered through glossy cellophane. Smoothed garments
with bitten nails. Mixed and matched accessories.

My dolls wore faux chiffon nighties. Slept in bespoke chocolate
boxes

until my nipples budded. Heralded a world beyond childhood.
I ran to greet it.

Dressed
undressed myself

others.

Gave away my dolls.

Serie Barford

Serie Barford was born in Aotearoa to a German-Samoan mother (Lotofaga) and a Pālagi father. She held a 2018 Pasifika Writer’s residency at the Michael King Centre, performed at the 2019 International Book Arsenal Festival in Kyiv, and collaborated with filmmaker Anna Marbrook for the 2021 Going West Different Out Loud poetry series. Her poetry collection (2021), Sleeping with Stones, was shortlisted for the Mary and Peter Biggs Award for Poetry at the 2022 Ockham New Zealand Book Awards. 

Poetry Shelf Poetry Day Notice – Drop by Drop: Adults Who Write Poetry for Children Competition

Drop by Drop:  Poetry for Children Competition

A new nationwide competition for adults who write poetry for children has been launched in the lead-up to Phantom Billstickers National Poetry Day in August.

‘Drop by Drop’ runs between now and 4th August and will be judged by renowned children’s writer and poet, Bill Nagelkerke. Entry is free and is open to anyone in New Zealand aged 18 years and over. The prize for the winning poem is $50. Up to three poems can be submitted on the theme of ‘water’ – to be interpreted as widely and wildly as entrants like. Poems should be aimed at 5-12 year olds. For further information visit the Poets XYZ Facebook Page or email thepoetsxyz@gmail.com.

The winner will be announced on Phantom Billstickers National Poetry Day on Friday 25th August.

The competition is organised by the Poets XYZ, a trio of New Zealand children’s writers. Elena de Roo, Kathryn Dove, and Melinda Szymanik are keen to see poetry for children flourish in Aotearoa New Zealand and to develop a network of children’s poets.

Poetry Shelf review: AUP New Poets 9 – Sarah Lawrence, harold coutts, Arielle Walker

AUP New Poets 9 – Sarah Lawrence, harold coutts, Arielle Walker, ed Anna Jackson
Auckland University Press, 2023

Each poetry book I read this year refreshes the page of what poetry can do. Yet some things remain constant in my addiction to reading poems: musicality, surprise, freshness, movement, heart – in varying blends and eclectic relationships. Aotearoa poetry is doing so much at the moment – there is neither constricting paradigms nor narrow recipes. Instead we get multiple connections along the sparking wires of writing. AUP New Poets 9, edited by poet Anna Jackson, brings sublime new poets to our attention. Anna has edited the series since issue 5 (2019), captivating our attention with the work of poets such as Rebecca Hawkes, Claudia Jardine, Vanessa Crofskey, Ria Masae, Modi Deng. This is Anna’s final issue, with Anne Kennedy taking over the editorial reins for issue 10.

In her introduction, lingusitically agile and idea forward, Anna writes potential pathways and animated openings for the reader. It is the kind of introduction that fertilises a book rather than burying its poetic potential in claustrophobic frameworks.

You can hear harold and Arielle read poems from their sequences here.

Sarah Lawrence

Sarah Lawrence’s sequence of poems embodies all the traits I have listed above. She achieves sweet movement along the line, petal-packed detail, heart spikes, flakes of the everyday alongside shards of strangeness. The combination is electrifying, luminous, immensely satisfying. Musicality is an imperative. Listen to the melody and chords in this stanza:

(…) Stitching the crumbs
into an upside-down cake, I speak slowly
to strangers who blink like cats.
On the lunar eclipse I come home glitter-drenched
to a gaggle of gawkers on beanbags outside, late
for the hole in the sky

from ‘The edge of winter’

I am in awe of the way metaphorical language enhances the physicality of both anecdote and reflection.

(…) The city is beginning
to pepper with faces I know. I can’t
leave our house without seeing at least one
man in a fisherman hat. I can’t leave our
house without saying at least one hello. Yes,
open your orange before we are home, it
is nice to squeeze stories from the rind.
Yes, I am here now & I am no longer
quite anonymous. The city is beginning.
I have never felt so brave.

from ‘real-life origami (to unfold)’

Slender moments shimmer in an intensity that draws love or grief or everyday friendship close. The “you” heightens the intimate layerings, and it is as though we get to inhabit that coveted addressee spot too. We move between the fragile and the tender, resemblance and divergence, the idyllic and the life singed.

Sarah writes with an intimacy ink that gets you warm and heart-touched as much as it startles and surprises. A dazzling arrival.

harold coutts

I find myself saying harold’s poems out loud, delighting in the rhythm and rhyme, the pitch and perfection of sound, and the sequence becomes a poem album on replay. Anna picked out ear-catching rhymes from the sonnet, ‘i am growing a garden’. Listen to that, and then listen to the melodic complexity of this stanza with its ripple lilts:

in the morning i cook eggs to placate the hearth of me
there’s a place for your shoes, still
i have missed you enough to fill all the walls i exist between
but never enough to call you

from ‘cooking eggs for one’

Gender is the insistent blood pulse of the sequence: ‘my gender is my inside room’. Gender is the vital refrain, an issue that links to body presence. The body with skin, lungs, ribcage, a body with growth and bloom, longings and limits. The body that loves and lusts, that eyeballs life or death, that brings itself into mesmerising view through physical detail and metaphor. I am moved immeasurably, held in the grip of heart and bone. The physicality and the animation. Haunted.

i am without my bones
mould me into carpet and lay me down
thus i might get some rest
i saw the sunset and now it rises
mocking the mountains of my eyelids
as i lurch home

from “hi and welcome to ‘i’, tired’ with harold coutts”

There is a sense of the body as threadbare, as shell, as stripped back by rodents. Yet it is also lavender bloom, survival. There are so many essential tracks through harold’s sequence, and I am only offering you this one, this body insistence, because it is gluing me to the lines. The tactile that arrests. The sublime music. Yet you will also fall upon the sun, flowers, swords and knives, swivel chairs, earth and dirt, love, pronouns, heat and sweat, the poet as reader, the reader as writer, and you will simply crave more. This is another dazzling arrival.

Arielle Walker

Reading Arielle’s sequence and I am held close in the tonic of what poems can be. Her opening poem, ‘a poem is a fluid thing all wrapped in fish skin’, is the most tender, the most illuminating embrace of the word and the world – whether physical, relational, heart-strung. Being. Becoming. Becoming poem. For yes, this is an offering of poetry as a form of becoming. I have never thought of a poem as a body of water but it feels so perfect – fluid yes but more than this. Hydrated, generating ebb and flow, life sustaining, beauty delivering.

How can I write a poem unless it rolls (a ready-made
river) out of the side of a mountain and runs gleefully
forward in a rush of eddying currents towards the sea
       so that all I have to do is hold out a hand to unravel
                       the slightest fraying edge of its fluidity, and
                                             spin a new yarn from its depths?

In her bio, Arielle writes: ‘Her practice seeks pathways towards reciprocal belonging through tactile storytelling and ancestral narratives, weaving in the spaces between.’ This resonates so deeply, as the poems are a form of guardianship, of caring for the natural world, trees plants, rivers. I am walking through the poems, hand in hand with a poet guide, making tracks through aural and textured delight, finding awe and nourishment. And as I walk, the guide draws my attention to here and there – I am thinking how caring for the natural world, how standing beside and beholding the sea, how weaving together this story and that story, this heart and that heart, is also a form of reading and writing: we are contemplating, translating, connecting, conversing, imbibing, witnessing, contributing.

Arielle’s form of writing is as full of movement and variation as the sea: constant, same, nuanced. She is spacing out, striking through, bunching up words, using italics, step-laddering. The shifting movement on the line echoes the shifting rhythm that is as visual as it is sonic. The musicality of a view is woven into the image-rich fabric of writing. She is weaving words of multiple languages from Te Reo Māori to English to Shetland dialect. The Scottish heather becomes weed in Taranaki landscapes. The shoormor where sea meets shore in Shetland becomes toes in the water, selkie returning to the sea, the river spine and river mouth, a new form, an old form, a memory, a myth.

she grew accustomed to her new form
learned to exchange salt for soil, built instead
upon the body of a mountain
her brine beginnings buried in the earth

she locked her words away too
dialect smoothed like seaglass
into new vowel shapes
the shoormal, the skröf, the lönabrak
forgotten

from ‘skin’

We will take what we need from the bush and no more. We take what we need from these poems and it will make our heart sing, our feet will plant firmly in the soil as we gather and acknowledge. And it is both essence and wide, irreducible and fortifying. These poems have touched a deep cord. They are quiet and humble and extraordinary in their dazzle.

Three poets with deft and distinctive approaches to writing, three poets who thread preoccupations with acute perceptiveness, earth concerns, personal disquiet and intimate recognitions. This is an anthology to celebrate, to dawdle over and absorb the satisfactions and epiphanies as you read. AUP New Poets 9 underlines the refreshing engagements a new generation of poets is producing in Aotearoa. And yes, altogether dazzling!

Sarah Lawrence (she/her) is a Pōneke-based poet, performer, musician and pizza waitress. She recently dropped out of law school to study acting at Toi Whakaari: New Zealand Drama School. Her parents are thrilled. She won the Story Inc Prize for Poetry in 2021, and you can find her writing in Starling, Landfall, A Fine Line and The Spinoff.

harold coutts is a poet and writer based in Te Whanganui-a-Tara. They have a hoard of unread books and love to play Dungeons & Dragons. Their work can be found across various New Zealand literary journals such as bad apple, Starling, Ōrongohau | Best New Zealand Poems, Poetry New Zealand Yearbook, and in Out Here: An Anthology of Takatāpui and LGBTQIA+ Writers from Aotearoa edited by Chris Tse and Emma Barnes (Auckland University Press, 2021).

Arielle Walker (Taranaki, Ngāruahine, Ngāpuhi, Pākehā) is a Tāmaki Makaurau-based artist, writer and maker. Her practice seeks pathways towards reciprocal belonging through tactile storytelling and ancestral narratives, weaving in the spaces between. Her work can be found in Stasis Journal, Turbine | Kapohau, Tupuranga Journal, Oscen: Myths and No Other Place to Stand: An Anthology of Climate Change Poetry from Aotearoa New Zealand (Auckland University Press, 2022).

Anna Jackson’s latest collection of poetry is Pasture and Flock: New and Selected Poems (Auckland University Press, 2018). She has also released Actions and Travels, a book on poetry (Auckland University Press, 2022). She is based in Wellington. 

Auckland University Press page

Poetry Shelf audio: Janet Wainscott reads from A Game of Swans

A reading from A Game of Swans, Janet Wainscott, Sudden Valley Press, 2023

‘The sampler’

‘The stationmasters’

‘She saw plesiosaurs’

‘The lagoon’

Janet Wainscott lives in Lincoln, near  Otautahi/Christchurch, and writes poetry and essays. Her work has appeared in takahē, Poetry NZ Yearbooks, Landfall, Catalyst and recent New Zealand Poetry Society anthologiesJanet won the poetry section of the NZSA Heritage competition in 2017 and the short prose section in 2019. In 2020 she was commended in the Hippocrates Prize for Poetry and Medicine competition. 

Her first collection of poetry, A Game of Swans, was published by Sudden Valley Press in May, 2023.

Sudden Valley Press page

Poetry Shelf Monday Poem: Ash Davida Jane’s ‘January 1st’

January 1st

on the horses’ birthday
we step brand new into the day,
hoping that for once, we have gone to bed
as one thing and risen another.
I go to bed tired, and I wake up
tired. I went to bed, a year ago,
and in the meantime I have grown
out of love. the days are
as long as they ever are. somewhere,
the horses are a year older. somewhere,
another horse slips wet and ready
into this life. how perfect, to be born
on the day that was already your birthday.
I go to bed, ready to love again,
legs unsteady as a newborn’s, expected
to hold up a body. how do we know
what to do the first time something
is asked of us. the first time we laugh.
the first time we taste salt. does
the body know how to love before
it’s born, thrust into a life it did not ask for.
nothing to unlearn yet. somewhere,
a mare licks her foal clean, nudges him
with her nose to try out his feet.
we try one step, then another.

Ash Davida Jane

Ash Davida Jane is a poet and editor from Te Whanganui-a-Tara. Her second book, How to Live With Mammals (Te Herenga Waka University Press, 2021) won second place in the 2021 Laurel Prize. She is a publisher at Tender Press and regularly reviews books on RNZ.

Poetry Shelf Celebrates: Winners of Given Words 2022 read their poems 

With the opening of competitions for the Phantom Billstickers National Poetry Day less than two months away, the director of Given Words, Charles Olsen, has invited the winners of the 2022 competition, Sarah-Kate Simons and Saphra Peterson, to read their poems for NZ Poetry Shelf.  

All entries had to include the five words helpdifferentthankfulwarrior, and dream, which were chosen by girls of the Our Little Roses orphanage in San Pedro Sula, Honduras. The winners were selected by Mikaela Nyman, Sophia Wilson and Charles Olsen. Their comments on the poems along with a selection of the entries by both adults and under-16s can be read on Given Words.   

On 1st August 2023, Given Words (now in its eighth year) will open with words chosen by students of López de Arenas Secondary School in Marchena, Seville, Spain. National Poetry Day competitions for 2023 will be added to the Competition Calendar during July.   

The winner of ‘Best Poem’ was Sarah-Kate Simons for her poem Prognosis.  

Winner of the ‘Best Poem by Under-16s’ was Saphra Peterson, aged 15, for her poem Doubt.  

Sarah-Kate Simons is a young poet and writer from rural Canterbury, where she lives with her adorable but troublesome Fox Terrier. She is widely published online, in magazines and in anthologies, such as Toitoi, Write On, Re-Draft, the NZ Poetry Society Anthology, and Poetry NZ Yearbook. She has also placed in several poetry and writing competitions, recently winning the 2021 HG Wells International Short Story Competition. Her other hobbies include ballet, talking to thin air and going ratting along the riverbank with her dog.  

Saphra Peterson lives in rural Canterbury but one day aspires to rule the world. She loves reading, writing, creating disturbing artwork, and running from the authorities. She can be found playing violent games of cards or contemplating her own demise. She hates writing biographies, in case you can’t tell.