Trigger warning: suicide, racism
This poem is offered in the spirit of fierce love, justice, historical accuracy and statistical clarity. It is offered at a time when:
- The latest UNICEF Innocenti Report Card 19: Fragile Gains – Child Wellbeing at Risk in an Unpredictable World, placed Aotearoa firmly at the bottom for child and youth mental health with the highest suicide rate out of 36 OECD and EU countries.
- The Whakatika Report: A survey of Māori experiences of racism (2021) found that 96 percent of Māori felt racism was a problem for them and/or their wider whānau to at least some extent.
- The current Youth2000-2019 survey series shows that experiences of racism and mental health inequities have increased over the 20 years of Youth2000 surveys. Current youth statistics for self-reported suicide attempts among high school secondary students: Māori 12.7%, Racialised non-migrants 7%, Racialised migrants 7.4%, Non-racialised migrants 3.5%, and descendants of settler colonial Europeans (Pākehā) 3.5%
- Over a quarter of Pacific students reported serious thoughts of suicide in the last year (26.4%) in 2019, increasing from 18.8% in 2007
- The Youth 2000-2019 report notes: “Embodiment of Whiteness that affects everyday interpersonal interactions; those perceived as White had better social experiences than those perceived as non-White. • Disadvantage among racialised migrants persisted intergenerationally; it can take several generations before disadvantages begin to abate, particularly for Pasifika populations.”
This poem is a response to this data. And a response to the coalition government budget that cut $9 million of Ministry of Pacific Peoples budget under David Seymour’s leadership, he who made public statements about blowing up the Ministry referencing Guy Fawkes. This poem is a response to the current coalition government and its attacks upon Te Tiriti o Waitangi, as well as blatant misrepresentation of the country’s founding document. It is a response to the whakamomori, suicide, of a tāne Māori public servant two days before the budget was announced, amongst targeted attacks on Māori and Pacific jobs in the public service. This poem is a response to our whānau experiencing three suicides in the first half of this year and the toll that this widespread despair and harm is having in our communities.
E V I L I N T E N S I F I E D
“Bad as the Chinese are, the South Sea savages are worse, and any extensive importation of them would have … a most pernicious effect, even were the country solely occupied by Europeans; but, when we consider what a large native population of our own we have, the evil is intensified.”
31 May 1870, Evening Post, Dunedin, New Zealand
We came,
So many centuries
later,
#tongantime
cheap labour
on banana boats,
ready for factory floors,
when they opened the doors
during the big boom.
We fuelled the dirty engine rooms
of the economy,
then cleaned them.
Then, the end of the golden weather
oil crises, over reliance on England,
high inflation, wage stagnation,
structure, policy,
a problem
population.
Overstayers.
Oversize.
Overweight.
Excess.
Coconuts.
Taking jobs.
Last on, first off,
No surprises
about whose jobs
were lost.
When I found that stats
that showed,
that before the end of the golden weather,
we (Pacific peoples) were MORE likely to be employed
than the general population…
it made some *noise* inside me…
Us?
Lazy, overstaying
leeches and moochers,
so fat, on the public purse.
We… were harder working?
This truth
worked its way
through me.
We were not
the dead-weight
long brown tail
slowing down
an otherwise fine
upstanding beast?
But the story goes,
we overstayed
our welcome,
we were described as violent,
yes, the adverts on TV
were paid for
with National Party money.
And the fine print of the exit clause
was whispered out of the mouths of babes
in school yards…
bunga, black, coconuts,
the N-word.
My six year old pig-tailed self,
I heard it all.
How did the words fall?
Heavy. Horrible.
Scary. Unsafe.
Sickening.
The research says
racism…
is…
demeaning, disregarding, humiliating, demands submissiveness, makes disposable, degrading, hostile, emboldened, psychologically aggressive, invasive, nonchalant and contemptful, gloating, flaunts power and success, overjoyed by dominance, a false sense of superiority, looking down upon, excluding, it sees itself as having a superior work ethic, more merit, being self-made, self-entitled, self-centred, and more worthy of a “good life”
It is unaccountable, taken for granted, embedded deep…
And how does it feel when it falls?
One hundred and ten empirical studies say:
stress, emotional distress, distaste, fear of rejection, rumination on previous experience, defence mechanisms, avoidance strategies, intrusive thoughts, rejection sensitivity, anxiety, vigilance, scanning for threat, stereotype threat, self-doubt, internalised negative perception, depression, fear of future, panic attacks, aggression, hyper-awareness of surveillance, the hyper-and micro-aggression, criminalisation, dangers of incarceration, exhaustion, adrenaline from the adrenals of constant fight and flight, cardiovascular impact (heart race pumps more), hyperventilation (rapid shallow breathing), cortisol, drop in carbon dioxide (dizziness, light headed), digestion system suppression (dry mouth, sensory sensitive), cognitive emotional fear, dysregulates the stress response system, shame affects the limbic system, the prefrontal cortex is enables rumination, impairs executive functioning, upsets emotional regulation, disregulates the hormonal axis, affects the automatic nervous system, weakens the immune system…
It has a crushing
effect on communities of colour,
“racial battle fatigue.”
Exhausting.
Researchers use the word,
“weathering”
to describe the relentlessness
of the breaking down, eroding
wearing down
and dissolving of the
human spirit.
Researchers note
that individuals
have a differential exposure
to racially based stressors.
It is NOT racist to say,
that it is mostly NOT white people
who experience the
relentless stress
of “weathering”.
But maybe,
weathering is a word
that disproportionately
includes white people,
who have been determined “other”
“crazy”, “mental”, “insane”,
“retards”, “spastic”, “handicapped”,
“queer”, “gay”, “homo”,
faulty, less than,
not whole,
not same,
but
*different*.
Not
normal
enough.
And they also
face
daily, crushing
discrimination,
corrosion
caused
from the
highest,
horrible,
and most holy
of places.
This is similar,
but not the same
as being ethnically *marked*
visibly, in ways you can’t unskin,
inescapably
associated with dark black,
yellow peril,
red indian,
or the savage sea brown of
“evil intensified”.
Every country in the Anglosphere
has a living breathing target.
Here: Māori,
followed by Pacific peoples,
although let’s be real,
we are the “colourful”
inconvenient “cousins”
better if we just went home
but we are not
the bullseye eye
target
of disgust.
My Pacific family,
can we be honest,
from the churchgoing,
polite seats,
we watch the
arrows
flying mostly
in their direction.
Especially
the swarming attacks
in the hive minds
led by the Beehive.
In this region, yes,
it is us.
Polynesians.
For so long,
the word Polynesians here,
did not include Māori.
Why?
Because Māori can’t overstay.
Because they can only be in the way.
You can’t Dawn Raid Māori.
Because they can’t: “Go back to where you came from!”
Because they are the people whose home,
has been taken
as *our* own.
In 1856, The physician and New Zealand politician, Dr Isaac Featherston, said it
was the duty of Europeans to ‘smooth down … [the] dying pillow’ of the Māori race.
1881 the prominent scientist Alfred Newman pronounced that, ‘the disappearance of the race is scarcely subject for much regret. They are dying out in a quick, easy way, and are being supplanted by a superior race.’
But, they’ve survived
the genocide
that was predicted.
They’ve survived the wars
we don’t talk about,
or teach about,
of European occupation.
Now, we see a slow
conquer and divide
of evil intensified.
A daily day,
Newstalk A to Z,
a weekly weathering
the Media Works
with poisonous prejudice,
seeping toxic Stuff
Heralding intolerance
from the highest on high,
self-titled Dominion,
into the smallest of small,
New Zealand Media and Entertainment
in every hall,
of our cities.
Politicians dishing toxic
doses of
demoralising despair,
seeding superiority,
speaking with
irradiated tongues,
tricking our young,
our men,
our women,
our whānau
into feeling
unworthy.
Knowing, somehow,
even if it’s too late
to take
the lives
of evil intensified,
our
society,
us,
we,
together,
relentlessly
unkind,
can
make
them
want
to
take
their
own.
Karlo Mila
Dr Karlo Mila (MNZM) is an award-winning poet of Pākeha and Pasifika descent (Kolofo’ou, Tonga, Ofu, Vava’u, with ancestral connections to Samoa). For seven years, Karlo ran the leadership programme Mana Moana at Leadership New Zealand. Mana Moana was based on her postdoctoral research on the ancestral intelligence of Pacific peoples in the region, indigenous Pacific languages, knowledge, and understandings of how to heal. She has worked in suicide prevention and been a researcher of mental health and wellbeing among Pacific peoples in Aotearoa, New Zealand. Karlo’s work is widely anthologised. She has three books of poetry. She is currently writing two books, one non-fiction and a new book of poetry. Karlo lives in Whanganui-a-Tara with her partner and three of their five children.